Optimistic...Depressed...What is This Feeling?

Tomorrow is Friday as I'm sure you all know. I've been trying to catch up with "Big Mac" so we can talk because I don't see why we should wait for him to answer me tomorrow. But, he's busy so I have to wait untill tomorrow. My phone got stolen yesterday so I can't text message him. I also can't text him because he lost his phone. Therefore I absolutely have no choice but to wait until tomorrow evem though the wait is unbearable. My past few days haven't really been my best. All, I can say about this situation is that, I feel like it's not completely fair that I completely trust him and he's scared about basketball season. That makes me feel like he can't trust me because he thinks I'm goingto throw him off track of his basketball game. He told my best friend that he can't put his girlfriend before basketball. I don't want him to do that anyway because I want him to stay focused and be happy. I believe that I can make him happy but he has to give me a try. If he says no, then it's his loss not mine. I really really like him though. I'll still support him and write him and all that good stuff when he goes to San Diego. I just can't dewscribe this feeling that I'm feeling right now.