New Year, New Me!

Hey everyone! I know it's been a while since I've posted anything. I've just been kind of busy. Well, 2010 is only ONE DAY AWAY!! This is unbelievable. God has blessed us to see the end of another year. Since I know that I haven't posted in a long time I'll give you a little update on me and my life. When I babysitted my little Angels Jadon and Leilani a few weeks ago, Jadon just fell in love with my best friend Josh. Leilani fell in love with the piano at my school. LoL. I love watching them so that Candy and Vincent can have time off. Especially with another little Reszko on the way. I do have a new interest by the code name of "Big Mac". LoL He didn't want me to put his actual name on my blog so I had to think of something that I know he loves. He's soo sweet. He's smart. athletic, and I feel so safe around him. His smile light's up every bit of sadness that could possibly be going on in my body when I see it. His hugs make me feel like I'm in a shield away from all danger in the world. He doesn't really date girls during basketball season because he's scared of getting off track. However, he's starting to see things my way and he's beginning to see that he can trust me. We'll just see how this goes. Big Mac, it'll be the right choice believe me. Well, everyone I'll post later on tonight. In 2010 that is! Happy New Year everyone be safe! You too Big Mac LoL :)

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope everyone is as happy as I am and knows that Jesus is the real reason forthe season. This is oneof my best Christmases ever! I've never been adopted by another family. I really wanted a camera for Christmas, I didn't get it though. However, I did get other things that I love very much. My step-dad got me a gold chain with my initial in it. I love it so much. Not to mention that one of my presents from one of my adopted families was a metal Twilight jewelry box. It's wonderful because I LOVE TWILIGHT!!!! LoL . I finally got my scrapbooking stuff which is great. Candy and I have been talking about starting me a scrapbooking album for a while. I also got 2 Target gift cards (worth $20 and $75) 2 debit cards (worth $50 and $25). Can u say Forever XXI!! I don't think that I will be using my cards on Forever XXI though. Because my other gift was the best gift ever!!! One of my adopted families got me.........a new cell phone!!!!!! pre-paid or not I love it. It's a true blessing. I also got a purse with lipgloss in it and some fingernail polish which I will never use in my life. I'm trully grateful, but also very tired. Goodnight everyone...well Goodmorning! Merry Christmas and God bless!

PARTY TIME!!!!!!

Hello everyone! My weekend was just wonderful. I hope everyon else's was the same. Friday night I had a concert at my school for my Chorus/Choir class. The night didn't start so good because I was late. However, I got into the concert anyway and I had alot of fun both singing and listening to the others sing. I saw a few of my friends perform solos and it was quite exciting! Saturday night was my best friend Josh's birthday party. In the beginning he was very upset because not alot of people were there. He was upset until his girlfriend (my good friend) Renee got there. Her and our other friends from school kind of made the party. After a while it was fun, except for the fact that my best friend was mad that I wouldn't dance with him. He was even mad that I didnt dance with "Big Mac" (my new interest in life). He was mainly upset because he thought that I wasn't having a good time when in fact I had a GREAT time. Especially with "Big Mac" keeping me company. We basically talked and laughed the rest of the time I was there. I left at 11:00, but the night's memories are still in my head. The party REEEAAALLLYY got turned up right before I left. It's ok though because I'm thinking about throwing a party with my nephew for the holidays. Well, I have to go because I'm getting hungry. Talk to you later!

Wow!

I just realizedthat I no longer have to worry about Kenneth! I'm so happy that I dont have to feel awkward being around him like I used to anymore. There is no longer a feeling of depression or sadness sweeping over me whenever I see his face or hear his name. I'm so happy that we can still be friends you know? It's cool talking to him just joking around. There is no longer the tension between us that used to exist. All I say is wow!

Ugh!!!

Hey everyone! Today is just a normal day. I woke up and went to school. I'm actually here right now. LoL! I'm in my ICS (Intergrated Coordinated Science) class and it is soooo boring! It always seems like the time in this class passes by so slowly. I'm doing a research project with my friends Eva and Delisa. This class can only be described in one word. Ugh!!!! Sometimes, I have to ask myself "How do i sit in this class for almost 2 hours?!?" You know how the only thing that the kids on the Charlie Brown show only hear when they talk to their parent is "Womp Womp Womp"? That's how it is with Mr Baker. He's so boring, after a while all you hear is "Womp Womp Womp" So, I Hope you guys are having a great day and I will pick up later. Right now my teacher is coming and I have to go! Talk to you Later!

Chill

Hey everyone! I know you guys feel the cold chilly weather outside. LoL I know I do. However, when I come home at 6:00 and I'm freezing my buns off, it helps me think. If Kenneth doesn't want me then oh well. He's missing out, not me. I do really miss him, and I will always be there for him. However, I refuse to be depressed because he wants to listen to other people. So, I'm just chilling right now. Literally! LoL. I'm Drinking hot Cocoa and watching the Grinch. So, as I relax I think about how good my life is and how good it is to chill! I'm cutting it short tonight. Happy Holidays and God Bless!

Next?

Well, today didn't really go so well at school Kenneth and I didn't get to talk out our problems because he kind of had an attitude. I was somewhat mad at that but at the same time, I can never stay mad at him. I know it seems kind of "thirsty" for me to say that but it's true. I never wanted to break up in the first place so it's kind of weird seeing him everywhere I went. Every time I saw him my stomach twisted up in a knot. I also started stuttering whenever I saw him and then began talking to someone else. It's funny because that also happens when we used to be on the phone, I would start stuttering. I want to work this out, but I'm not sure how else to get his attention. My bestfriend said if I really miss him, then I might have to grab him by his arm and sit him down like a 3 year old. My other friend A'more said that I need to write him a letter telling him how I feel (as long as I'm not desperate) because I write better than I talk. I'm not really sure what to do. I wrote the letter I just haven't given it to him yet because I haven't decided on if I want to. So I need suggestions on what I should do. Should I give him the letter or go another way about it? Who's suggestion is next?