Confused

Well, me and my boyfriend broke up. :-( I foundout some very disturbing news about him that really messed up my head. He's really 19 years old which is kind of the biggest problem. However, I also found out that he has 3 other girlfriends and one of them is pregnant. All of them are my age (14)! I'm so mad at him that I told my sister, but my sister wants to beat him up because he goes to her school! The only thing is, no matte how mad I get I can't forget about him. His face won't leave my head and out memories won't leave. I'm almost at the point where I want to cry but can't bring myself to do it. I just don't understand how I can be so angry at him but I can't stop thinking about him. It's just really confusing. So I'm having a difficult time but I'm moving slowly but surely forward in my life. I'm still a little confused but I can't do anything about it.

Drama!

I am the type of person who absolutely hates drama! Female drama especially because they always wanna fight over one thing: A BOY! I have a boyfrien that I am perfectly happy with, this othe rboy is trying to talk to me when he has a girlfriend. So the girl doesn't me and him to be friends and she even called me a word that I really despise. I'm giong to let God take care of this one because they both need prayer. She needs her eye open because I'm trying ot let her know what her boyfriend is doing while she is all up in the clouds. I don't fight over a boy but I fight over respect. She needs Jesus in her life badly! I'm giong to end this drama in a way that I didn't want ot if she keeps callin me that word, because I'm trying ot help her so she won't be all heart broken and stuff when she finds out. Help them Jesus! I don't like drama and I'm not strong enough to deal with all this by myself. I'm going to end up doing something I really regret! I really don't like drama!

I Guess

Today wasn't really my best day. I feel really bad today because my stomach feels like it is about to explode. I know it will be alright though. I'm happy though because I passed my test in my ICS (Intergrated Coordinated Science) class. This means that my grade will hopefully begin to go up if he doesn't start to grade differently just because we're on a different unit. My best news of the day is that Ihave the best boyfriend that anyone could possibly want. I told him that my stomach was hurting today and he asked me if I was ok. He also made me laugh and forget that I was even in pain. Many people think that's only a small thing but the small things really count, especially to me. I enjoy every moment that I spend talking to him. What I enjoy even more is every moment that I spend with him. So, you can imagine how happy I am to know that he is hopefully coming to see me Saturday if he doesn't have anything to do. I guess I really don't know how I feel. With all that said, I will be writing a new poem soon, so be on the look out for it. Goodnight and God bless! :-)

Wonderful Day!

Today was one of the best days of my life. We had my little neice and nephew's birthday party today and it went better than I would've imagined. Everything was kind of last minute but it still went ok. We ate, laughed and had lots of fun. Not to mention that my boyfriend came over and my mom really likes him. It was kind of hard to tell my mom that we went out but I still got it through. He's a really special person in my life and I'm glad she can respect that. She saw that I relly liked him and she didn't complain or try to argue with me like she normally does. I'm glad I have him in my life because he's a very willing and patient person. He's nice to my parents and he really likes them. He's even willing to come out here to West LA just to come see me because I'm not allowed to go out on dates until I'm 15 which is only a few months away. Well, Goodnight to all and God bless!

My Best Friend!

Josh is the most wonderful person anybody could know! I mean that too! We have ahad our ups and downs where we argue for like 2 minutes and rhen we're friends again. I really liked Josh alot because he was really different from the boys now-a-days. He didn't approach a young lady in any type of way nor did he approach them in a disrespectful way. He is easy to talk to because he can normally relate to what I have to say. The only thing is, that Josh didn't really like me in the way that I liked him. Now, all of my ladies know that a situation like that is really hard for a young girl. However, he was really nice about it and considrate of my feelings. So, even though I am kind of having a hard time getting over him we're still good friends. I mean, how could I possibly let a true blessing like that go?!? He's my true best friend! Not to mention that his mom is extremely pretty! She's not the type of mom that is too nice nor is she the type of mom that is just too strict. The way my best friend describes her, she's the type of mom that is easy to talk to but you can't pull one over on. Josh really respects her and I do as well. I would love to meet her, but Josh acts like he doesn't want me to LoL. This is dedicated to him. I LOVE YOU JOSH YOU'RE THE BEST BEST FRIEND I COULD POSSIBLY HAVE!!!!

Young Love

Tonight, I leave you with something to think about. Alot of people hate on young couples. They always have something to say, wether it's because of an age difference or because the parents don't like the boyfriend/girlfriend. The first thing they say about young couples is "they don't know anything about love" Well, like Chris Brown says "We got that young love, young love." I believe in young Love. So this is amessage to everybody that is a hater on the young couples: Stop hatin on the young love! They are not bothering you. Young couples, I got your back I understand. Goodnight everyone, God bless!

Good morning!

Good morning wonderful word! Today I have no entertainment because my mom and I aren't going to the W.O.W (Women Of Wonder) event anymore do to transportation issues. However, I do plan to go across the street today to get some frehs (HOT!) air. I haven't been in a while because I've been sick. So, today I am going across the street to enjoy God's wonderful creation. God bless you all!